Thursday, November 18, 2010

the 19th again...

Every month it comes around...every month I try not to focus on it....
yet tomorrow it is here again, and I think about my mom and the fact that it has been 15 months since she's been gone...
How could I have gotten through 15 months of my life with out her?
I miss her every second of every single day.
I miss the amazing presence that she had in my life and the lives of everyone around her.
I miss her laugh...
and her voice...
and our talks
and her advice...
and the help she always gave me through, what I thought at the time were the difficult moments in life...Which somehow don't even compare to the difficult times that exist now that she is no longer here.
I miss the days we got to spend together.
I miss the togetherness that she brought to our family.
I miss the awesome things that she always found for us to do.
I miss hearing her call me Tiff, or sweetie pie.
I miss her so very much.
I am forever and always...
Rena's daughter...

4 comments:

  1. Knowing exactly how you feel, thinking of you lots at this hard time, its been 14 months since I lost my Dad and sometimes getting through the day is hard but we have to, for them if no-one else. Sending you a huge hug and a shoulder to cry on.
    Love & Hugs
    Donna xox

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  2. I know what you mean.....sometimes it seems like it gets harder as time goes by because you realize how much you have lost! However, eventually, it does get a little easier (it's been a few years now since my sister died.) Hope that encourages you.

    I'm praying that you will find hope and peace in the Lord today and in the memories of your mom.

    Blessings to you!!

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  3. im so sorry tif! i know what you mean and it sucks majorly! sometimes i think about it and cant believe i've gotten through 9 years without my dad. it seems way too long.
    remembering her is great though. it helps her live on longer in your heart (as cheesy as that may sound, its true).
    i love you and please always feel free to email me about it! im always here for you!
    -kel

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