For months and months I have been planning on coming back to face the keys of my computer and write. It has simply been too long. I am constantly reminded of how much this little space in my world helps me to process through so much.
I am here...
Today is July 2nd, exactly 5 years to the day that my beautiful mom was checked into the hospital and never made it back to her safe and cozy home. This time of year is always hard and now my family and I are facing another tough time. Over the past few days my dad has had some health scares, a visit to the ER and an overnight stay in the hospital due to struggling to breath. Although the doctors never actually diagnosed anything and sent him home 24 hours later with an explanation that he took too much of one of his medications, my family and I still don't think that is an answer we are comfortable with. His health has declined a lot in the past few months and no one seems to be able to figure out what is going on.
Hopefully they are right and he will start to feel better soon, but so far he is not.
One of the hardest things in this life is watching your parents getting older, especially when their health begins to decline.
As we journey through these days in our lives I often wonder how it is that we are so resilient and can make it through tragedy. This has been something I have been thinking about so much lately. I want to try and understand it better and see what things other people have found that have been helpful when facing the hard times, the devastating times.
If you are reading this and have any thoughts to share, I would love to hear some of your own stories...
It feels so good to be back...It's funny how something as simple as words on a blog can help so much.