Monday, July 2, 2012

...lately...

I have felt a little more fragile than usual~ I feel like I have been a little more in thought, a little more sad, a little more protective and standoff~ish and on the verge of tears sometimes too.  I figured out what it has been~ This time of year always sneaks up on me~ It is such a hard and emotional time of year. Today is the day, 3 years ago, that we found out the diagnosis of my moms brain cancer that took her from us just 6 weeks and 6 days later.
It hits so hard sometimes~ I miss her more than I can really properly express. 
Life continues on, and you put a smile on your face and move in the only direction you know how~ But it does not mean that I don't think of her always, that I don't still miss her as much as the very first day, and it does not mean that I don't feel an extremely huge void in my life without her, because I do....Always...
Someone asked me the other day if I had 3 wishes what would they be.  The first thing that came to mind is that I wish my mom was back.  Alive, healthy, vibrant and as amazing as always. 
Since that cannot happen, I will simply continue to love her, miss her and think of her always...

4 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you're having to go such a fragile time right now, Tiffany. Praying you find comfort, hold on to sweet memories and get time to heal a little bit more.

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  2. Thinking of you, friend....

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  3. Sending you so much love. You're strong and beautiful and your mother would be so proud of you and who you've become. Here's some love from one friend to another. Thinking of you.

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  4. Thinking of you Tiffany
    Kelly Ann
    x

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