...lately...

I have felt a little more fragile than usual~ I feel like I have been a little more in thought, a little more sad, a little more protective and standoff~ish and on the verge of tears sometimes too.  I figured out what it has been~ This time of year always sneaks up on me~ It is such a hard and emotional time of year. Today is the day, 3 years ago, that we found out the diagnosis of my moms brain cancer that took her from us just 6 weeks and 6 days later.
It hits so hard sometimes~ I miss her more than I can really properly express. 
Life continues on, and you put a smile on your face and move in the only direction you know how~ But it does not mean that I don't think of her always, that I don't still miss her as much as the very first day, and it does not mean that I don't feel an extremely huge void in my life without her, because I do....Always...
Someone asked me the other day if I had 3 wishes what would they be.  The first thing that came to mind is that I wish my mom was back.  Alive, healthy, vibrant and as amazing as always. 
Since that cannot happen, I will simply continue to love her, miss her and think of her always...