Ensign Peak, Utah...Sunset July 18th 2011

My friend Nicole and I hiked up Ensign Peak last night to take some photos of the sunset and our amazing city~ Here are a few of my favorites from the shoot!

Hot numbers....

Hot numbers coffee shop in Cambridge became one of my favorite places to be during my week in England~ I went there every morning for coffee but more importantly, time with my journal~ it was a place that meant so much to me by weeks end.

I shed tears there with strangers sitting at the same table, never speaking a word, my head buried in my pages to try and hide the tears.

I was vulnerable there with emotions that I had kept hidden for too long. I couldn't help it. I was comforted by the words I needed to write. Facing things I hadn't yet faced about my life and the changes that had come.

I wrote in detail about a scarf and bike helmet hanging on the coat rack...
I listened to Jazz music...
I watched the rain fall through the windows...
I loved every minute spent here, simply not enough...
I only took a few photos but I love how they portray...
Hot Numbers...




This is my farewell post to England...
Next stop ~ Paris, France!

I had a dream...

I had a dream about my mom last night~
I ran up to her and held her so tight. I hugged her as hard as I could, I was crying and I kept telling her how much I love her and miss her ~
When I dream of her they are almost always like that...I just don't want to let her go.
If I had just one wish ~ I would want to give her one more giant hug and tell her just how very much I love her and how special she is to me and how very, very much she is missed....

My last few days in England...

We went in to London the last two days of my stay in England before I headed off to Paris~ The first night we saw Wicked...Loved it!
The next day we went back to wander around. We went to a cathedral and to The Tate museum~
I loved the cool taxis in London,
they look like old fashioned cars.
Here are a few photos from London!

Ely Cathedral, England

My niece and I took a train to Ely from Cambridge~
Here are some pictures from the Ely Cathedral...

Run Dirty Girl Run! Pink Ladies style!

Last Thanksgiving my friend Heather and I signed up for a race July 2nd 2011, she ended up having a family trip that weekend so my friend Becky took her place.
We had such a blast! What a fun race! This was my first mud/obstacle course race and I LOVED it! It was all women and the money raised goes to gynecological cancer research.
Becky went to the thrift store the day before the race and found us the most amazing outfits ~
Our team name was The Pink Ladies!
Andy and Becky turned the jackets into Pink Lady originals with puffy paint and steady hands!

Lessons I've learned...
~Don't take yourself too seriously!
~You are never too old to be silly!
~I look like Elton John with pigtails in those giant glasses!
~Working out with friends is so much better!
~Life is too short so enjoy every minute!


Here are some photos from the day!








After...

2 years~

2 years ago this day my whole world crashed down around me~
It was July 2nd 2009 that we found out the news of my moms cancerous brain tumors. She was checked into the hospital that night and never made it back home.
It still feels so strange to me that all of this happened and the reality is that my mom is gone and will never be back. I think sometimes our brains and hearts forget that part. I suppose that is how we can continue to go on.
I know that she lives inside me, and my family and that she is thought about, loved and missed every moment of every day.
This time of year is hard for me. The 4th of July weekend means so much more than fireworks, it marks the beginning of the most devastating time in my life.
I will go to my friends home for a BBQ and fireworks and I will be surrounded by family and friends and I will be happy and feel lucky to be there~
But my heart will ache for what is missing from my life ~
My beautiful mom~